New Year

Friends are gone,

Love is far,

Count 3 2 1

The last hour.

Real

The walls of the diminutive room close around

And through the sun-tainted glasses I look down

Upon the red sheets I lie in I see and feel

The warm burning gun wound is real.

Gone

The stars shine down and smile and say,

He is gone now but he shall return one day.

Bitter Ale Imaginations

Head spinning like the world around,
Bitter sweet ale gulped down and down.
Lights play around like life,
Tempting those bodies with promises,
And the sways of a body out of control.
No wallowing in just bitter tears,
Only the bitter ale tonight.
Exotic temptations all around,
Debase to imperfect needs tonight,
No more good deeds,
I'm not who I thought I was,
I am them.
I know now I am them.
In the moment that I was by myself
I thought I was aching to be more
And now that I have this night to myself
I'll have my bitter ale tonight.
So no island of heaven for me,
I live in the bays of sin tonight,
Stripped of the ashes,
Raw burned skin tonight,
And my bitter ale.

Let blood fall from the brow

Life seems to go no where
As another day goes by.
Parents fight and I bare
The fear that I may die.
For die we all must one day,
And I wonder why not now,
Before my body falls into decay,
So let blood fall from the brow.

Crimes

I remember lying in your arms the other day,
I was shocked to see you so happy.
My heart refused to feel,
Stone cold.
And every time I thought I might begin
To feel,
I shut it off.
I did not want to feel the pain
Of having everything for a moment,
Only a moment.
It is too much to bear each time,
It is a blatant hurtful crime.

I'm fine

The winter chills more than bones,
And the sun refuses to shine.
People say I've lost my mind,
Even though I say I'm fine.

What Matters

I was at world's end,

She was a fickle friend. 

Need comes, she goes.

I tried to hold her close,

But she left me,

Left me to see,

What a cruel world it is,

And I shall not miss

The life I have dreamed of,

I shall return to the way I was. 

How easily he said it was a matter of size. 

Have you seen my childhood - MJ

Have you seen my childhood?
I’m searching for the world that I come from
’cause I’ve been looking around
In the lost and found of my heart...
No one understands me
They view it as such strange eccentricities...
’cause I keep kidding around
Like a child, but pardon me...

People say I’m not okay
’cause I love such elementary things...
It’s been my fate to compensate,
For the childhood
I’ve never known...

Have you seen my childhood?
I’m searching for that wonder in my youth
Like pirates in adventurous dreams,
Of conquest and kings on the throne...

Before you judge me, try hard to love me,
Look within your heart then ask,
Have you seen my childhood?

People say I’m strange that way
’cause I love such elementary things,
It’s been my fate to compensate,
For the childhood I’ve never known...

Have you seen my childhood?
I’m searching for that wonder in my youth
Like fantastical stories to share
The dreams I would dare, watch me fly...

Before you judge me, try hard to love me.
The painful youth I’ve had

Have you seen my childhood....

Sadistic Desires

Rock-a-by-baby smiling-away,
Kill-it-before the end-of-the-day.
Stomp-it and swish-it and kick-it-around,
Then-stash-it-away in lost-and-found,
Someone will come and take it away,
And-sell-it-to-Devil who eats-it-with-hay!

He goes

He goes, leaving me behind,

He goes, perhaps to return,

Perhaps to change,

For a new life,

He goes.

And today I hope and pray,

In the nervousness that is

Slowly suffocating me,

The incessant bantering in the mind,

The shortness of breath,

Suffocating me,

Killing me,

He goes,

He goes,

He goes.

Return to me someday,

He goes.

Burn me

Let the flames of love envelop me
And burn me and destroy me.
It is better than to lie here in emptiness,
And wait for eternity.

Make Love

Sights and sounds, smells and touch,
Heightened senses from the excitement,
Of the day to come.
Yes,
We shall make love.
Rest,
Soft skin, weary eyes,
For the day to come,
Yes,
We shall make love.
The day will come,
When we shall be one,
We shall make love.
Dreams fulfiled,
Desires let loose,
We shall make love,
Yes,
We shall make love.

Haunted Nights

The nights are painted with your memories,
Inside the walls of my mind.
Blurred are the kisses, mingled in agonies,
Lost forever that I cannot find.
Never to return to me,
Like a life taken without choice.
Come dear death swiftly,
I no longer have my voice.

Time

So many tears for the broken heart,
The days are blue and nights tinged with blood.
Don't stay, go away,
Come again another day,
Love like the fairy tale lands,
Is far far away.
Go away, go away,
Make the pain go astray.
Love come back,
Time move on,
Sing my song.

Base

I cower behind carnal conversations,
Hoping he never sees the pain,
The tears I cry with a smile on my face,
Showers of contempt that rain.

And each time I find courage somehow
To stop the anger from taking over,
I must hide the feelings I cannot control,
As I pretend that I am sober.

Forget

Apologies made but never bought,
Evil plans of suffering wrought,
No closer than the day it began,
I can't forget love but I know you can.

At Night

At night I lay and think of you hoping my wishes and dreams come true
I wonder can this be the end is this all that's left
I wish we could go to the way things were
I lay and cry about the things that happened and how it all ended


At night I lay and think of us, I mean you and I
I realize there's no more us
I dream of us together again
I wish for us to be together again
But in the morning I realize it was all
At Night....

Wasteland

Our love is a wasteland of promises in vain,

Rotting in my palms as the tears drop in pain. 

Twisting and Turning

Mixing and matching,
Twisting and turning,
Hoping and praying,
Dreaming and considering,
Never knowing yet always knowing,
Wanting to, yet not wanting to,
Mixing my heart,
Matching my soul to yours,
Twisting fate with the flick of the wrist,
Turning my life over,
Hoping that it would end,
Praying that it never would stop,
Thinking it was over,
Wishing that it wasn't,
Dreaming of its coming,
Considering letting it steal within
Never knowing if it's true,
Always knowing that it's there.
Wanting to live in the light,
Not wanting the light to come,
The love of another
The dreams of someone close,
Remembering what you used to feel,
Can it come back if you pray so?

Happy Birthday

Maybe today...
you'll look at me the way you did yesterday,
when all my faults were set aside,
and for once, i felt perfect.

Maybe today...
my cheeks won’t hurt 
from the amount of smiles 
you place on my face
and the amount of butterflies you create
in my tummy.

Maybe today...
i'll think straight and pull myself together.
think of all the times you hurt me 
and the amount of tearless pain.

But today...
insted of pulling out and moving on...
I’ve fallen for you all over again.

Today,

No words can express how much I miss you,

Miss your laughs and jokes,

Miss you pulling my cheeks

Miss you

And if I could live life all over again

I would have my heart broken a thousand times

But I would love you all over again

And again

And again

There is so much pain

So much distance

So many things unsaid

So many fights

But in my eyes

I shall always remember your smiling face

The twinkle in your eyes

The love in your heart

Your soft hands in my hands

Your soft lips on my lips

Maybe today,

You’ll see that love isn’t perfect

But it’s worth living for,

Worth hoping for,

Worth suffering for,

Worth dying for

Worth lying for

Worth trying for

Worth forgiving for,

Worth, everything.

Maybe today...
you'll look at me the way you did yesterday,
when all my faults were set aside,
and for once, I felt perfect.

And insted of pulling out and moving on...
you will fall in love with me all over again.

Every time I feel the tears stirring,

I scream in anger at my weakness. 

I guess he knows he doesn't want me any more,

He left in such a hurry, he didn't close the door. 

The Wall

I stay on this side of the wall,

Where the wind is sharp,

And the stars shine.

I go about my daily chores

With fervor and promptitude.  

Cutting the grass, clearing the fallen leaves,

And letting the vines hang on the wall. 

I am happily discontent. 

But, when it comes climbing over the vines, 

Precariously, to my own side of the wall, 

My precious side of the wall,

I become unhappily discontent. 

Lightning thunders with admonition,

And the morning light shuns me.

And before I can discern my malcontent,

I find I have broken down the wall.

I cast my blubbery eyes upon the broken pieces,
Hurl a few of them around,
At nothing in particular, and prostrate, 
Hoping for mercy. 
And when the snot dries up the next day,
I pick myself up from the stone cold floor,

Set brick upon brick,

And build the wall again. 

My Muse

The horror ensues,
He's still confused,
Hope is abused,
God is amused.

Aaj Paas Aao Na

Kahin in raaton mein kho se gaye hain

Pyar ke woh lamhe so se gaye hain

Chain milta nahi tere bina,

Tu milta nahi mujhe sapne bina,

Dard itna hai tera mera ye jata nahi,

Ankhein num hain inhe hasna aata nahi

Tu ek baar jo has de to dil itna khilta hai,

Saare jahan ko chor doon mann karta hai.

Aaj paas aajao na, paas aaj aao na

Door aaj jao na, maaf aaj kar do na

Paas aa jao na (2)

Aaj paas aajao na, paas aaj aao na

Door aaj jao na, maaf aaj kar do na

Paas aa jao na (2)

Woh saare pal kyun bhulaoon aur kaise,

Mushkil hai bhool pana khud ko jaise,

Apne toote dil ke tukron pe na chalao,

Maaf kardo aaj mujhe na bhulao.

Mere haanthon mein de do apna haanth,

Ye zindagi hai poori sirf tere saath,

Dil ko aur rulao na

Aaj paas aajao na, paas aaj aao na

Door aaj jao na, maaf aaj kar do na

Paas aa jao na (2)

Aaj paas aajao na, paas aaj aao na

Door aaj jao na, maaf aaj kar do na

Paas aa jao na (2)

Reverse Gear

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AhIUxrvbT2Q

After all the problems we’ve been through,

You and I will never be together again

And I will not believe that

You can be wonderful friend.

I realize this may be a shock but

“Love heals everything”

Is a pure lie, and

“Trust once broken cannot be repaired”

You know that

Being shrewd

Is more important than

Being loving.

I can tell you that

Once upon a time

We always stood by each other

But this isn’t the case now.

The solution is to forget you and move on

People tell me that

2 years from now you and I will stop talking

I cannot say that

You care about me

In the future

Lying to me will be normal for you

I cannot say that

You want to make me happy

It is clear

You do not love me

It is foolish to believe that

We will be together forever

All this will come true, unless we decide to reverse it. 

A grasp away

Alone, after the biggest day in my life,
The solitude hits me like concentrated alcohol,
Yet it is not as sweet.
The enticing song with false promises blasts in my ears,
I am not enthralled.
It tries to restore the elation, and hope,
It fails miserably.
The one person who can elate, lies a grasp away,
So close, yet so far.
How do I tell him how much I love him,
How everything seems right when he says he will be by my side,
How I would do anything for his love.
How do I tell him?
A grasp away- so close, yet so far.

House of Cards

Burnt by the endless tears,
Destroyed by the screams of anger.
Just a petty cruel argument,
And the house of cards called patience
Comes crashing down in a flood of fury.
When will I learn?

I'm battered and bruised and sore,

I have no will to live life any more.

Outbreak

Thinking, thoughts of pain.
Betrayal, guilt, lies.
Grinding teeth, fists tightening,
Struggling against their tight grips,
Struggling to find anything,
Anything to hit my head against.
No life, no forgiveness.
Die. Die.
No more memories of what happened,
What they said happened.
I loved him. I loved him to death.
Just wanted to talk,
Because daddy never had time,
Just wanted to talk.
Pills and blades and bile and,
And cold stone floor to hit my head.
Stinging pain.
They loosen their grip.
Breathing, deeply, sleeping.

Was

The love is different yet still the same,
I am no longer playing the game.
Hearts have been broken and feelings hurt,
The meal is over, its time for dessert.

Wake Up

The morning kills me with its light,
And the inner strength with it dies.
I wake up shabbily and rub my eyes
Of hopes and dreams from the night.

Judgement Day

Sinking in a sea of memories and dreams,
My vision blurs, all is not what it seems.
I shall run out of breath, and my heart will stop,
I shall drown in my tears while he sheds not a drop.

Anticipation

The day draws closer when he must make a choice,

Yet my hopes do not grow as I see no reason to rejoice.

Pining Away

If only I could kiss those dewy lips,

And look into his eyes,

I shall pine away in loneliness,
Until the love in him dies. 

Contradictions...

I can feel the love in his voice, and see it his eyes,

I wish I could move on, but I cant deal with goodbyes. 

After Love...

Who knew the sun could shine so bright,
That it could burn the eyes with light?
Who knew the winds could blow so strong,
That one could be swept along?
Who knew the rain could even drown hearts,
And the battle of love was a game of darts?

My Happily Ever After

Not a day goes by without guilt,
And each time I promise myself I shall move on,
I dread the loneliness even more.
Every time I try to move on,
I cannot ignore the life we shared,
The tears and smiles, the kisses and hugs.
Friends we will be,
But ever more?
Life is not a happily ever after all....

Plea..

If I could hold your hand one last time,

Close to my heart that is no longer mine,

And if I could tell you how much you mean to me,

The stars would blush from my heart-rending plea.

Stupidly in Love..

He calls back whenever I ask him to,
He tries to help when I have no clue.
He laughs like a baby when I go to see him,
He shouts and screams when I try to be grim.
He giggles when I let him touch me,
And calls me stupid so very sweetly.
It's no surprise I fall in love every time,
Je t'aime beaucoup Avi, will you be mine??

Welcome...

Five point someone living in the big bad city,

Dumped and lonely and don't deserve pity.  

Got some talent but it isn't enough,

No future in sight and I can't even bluff. 

Had this guy but I let him down too,

He was the cutest thing I ever knew.

Friends are bizarre and not even two,

This is my life, I'd like to welcome you! 

Cold...

I'm lying on the cold stone floor,
I'm not welcome there any more.
It's been months since he left,
And I'm still here, untouched.
I don't have fancy friends or places to go when I want,
I don't have the brains or a body that I can flaunt.
I don't say I don't want attention,
I just want a hand to hold,
But how to find it is the contention,
When all the hands are cold.

Night and Day

My life is not like night and day,
So that morning will always come.
The nights show no sign of ending,
It's been months since I saw the sun.

A Rotten Heart

It's days now.
It's still lying on the floor,
Like discarded food,
Rotting away, flies brimming overhead.

It hasn't stopped beating.
It's been trampled over.
It reeks of decay.
No one wants to clean it up.

Forget nor Forgive

Judgement day approaches,
Yet he still remains afar.
The nails claw into soft skin,
I lose all sense of power.

I think of the all the reasons,
Why it will never ever work.
And I hate the world even more,
I stab my dreams with a dirk.

Death, sweet death, come take me,
I have no desire in me to live.
He dwells without me happily,
He will neither forget nor forgive.

Phonecalls..

The fear grips me tight and I fight it alone,
I will cry every time you cut the phone.

Lost in You....

Sleeping awake, lost in a memory of you,
I watch the days go by without a clue.

Saltwater

Upon an eyelash,

It swims down the cheek,

Incessant.

Triggered by the slightest anger in his voice.

Some would call it drama.

Strange, that my raised voice competes with others',

But not his voice.

Weary

The mind is weary,
The eyes are teary,
No comfort in sight,
When ends this night?

Off Button

If only there was a button I could press,

Making anger vanish into nothingness. 

You goddamn perfect thing

You goddamn perfect thing,

Your lips as pure as dew,

Your eyes look me through.

You make my heart hurt and burn,

With you I never seem to learn.

You goddamn perfect thing,

I wanna run away when you're around,

And when you're gone I wanna be bound.

I don't wanna love you so much,

I don't wanna dream of your touch.

You goddamn perfect thing.

Closing Doors

The door is closing on me,
You can't leave so easily,
I'll block the doors with boxes,
Look here, look at this locket,
You said you'd always love me,
Is this it, is this all you could be?

Pretendin'

I just wanted to stop by and say,
I am really happy for you today.
You seem like you're havin' a good time,
You've got your buddies and money and no time,
Not for losers like me with no life,
Yeah I wasted mine on you instead of me.
You've got your heart that doesn't work,
And an appetite that I'm here to fulfill,
Yeah we're friends with benefits,
You're the one who benefits.
So don't tell me not to cry Mr. Holiness,
You're not the one who's been dumped like trash.

Yeah I hurt you, but you're the one who can't move on.
Yeah I chose this life and I like it,
It's not your fault I destroyed it bit by bit.
I just thought that you'd be there when I was done,
I thought love was beyond money and position.
I thought come judgement day I'd find you by my side,
But I guess mistakes aren't forgiven until you've died.


I'm sure you'll find someone new who worships you,
And will get you down whenever you want.
I'm sure she'll have the kind of rack you like,
And won't bother you with calls when she's upset.
Yeah, she'll fit in with your family with her dad who's just your type,
And she'll have fair skin and won't ever start a stupid fight.
Don't worry, I won't come knocking by your door,
I'll lie down and wait for some guy to do me over.
And when I fake the shivers I got from touching your skin,
He'll pull my hair back and never realize I'm pretendin'.

Dark Nights

I do not know what lies ahead,

The night is cold and moon is dead.

No longer in control, I surrender now,

Let destiny guide where I go and how. 

You're Gone

You became a part of me,
You'll always be right here.
But now you're gone,
And I'll always live in fear.

Anger and Jealousy

I wish I could rid myself of anger and jealousy,
Emotions that have ruined my love and family.
But the more I run away from them,
The more they seem to pursue me fiercely.

It is better to have loved....

The stars shine down and smile and say,
Love will last and it's going to be okay.
And though there is distance and suffering,
And life does not at all seem comforting,
Someday you will remember the writing on the wall,
It's better to have loved and lost, than not loved at all.

What a Day

Oh what a day!
I had forgotten I could feel this way.
Was it the feel of his lips on my neck?
Was it the feel of him caressing my face?
Or was it the fact that he ran to wipe my tears,
Yes, he left the world behind, and came to me.
And already I can feel the loneliness stirring,
Not because it wasn't good enough,
But because I so desperately want more of it.
When he fell asleep on my shoulder,
I felt the world around me dissolve,
And despite the noise and chaos around,
I could only feel his oneness.
What a night it shall be,
Groveling in the darkness,
Begging for more,
Oh what a day! Oh what a day!

I Was Wrong

For years I thought I was the only one,
Whom life had dealt an unfair hand.
For years I thought sympathy would do the trick,
And no one close I knew had it as bad as I did.
But I found out the truth,
My troubles were nothing.

The very man I would profess to love,
Had troubles I could never dream of,
And when he broke the truth to me,
I realized I lived in unneeded misery.
I could be happy with what I have,
Because I am truly lucky.

Rotten Arguments

He shouts and I scream,
A chaos of words foreseen.
I try and he also tries,
Failing to explain otherwise.
Tears fall, tempers rage,
Both are on a different page.
Saying things we do not mean,
Can't we wipe the slate clean?

Scars-II

The times we made love count for nothing,
The burden is mine to bear, mine alone.
For he shall find another to submit to his carnal needs,
And I am scarred forever.
Prominent scars on hands and legs, from attempts to end my life,
Secret scars from loving him the way he wanted to be loved.
What does he care?

Used and discarded all my life,
What difference shall it make now?
Used and discarded again.
For the day he finds another,
I will no longer be important.

His ego will not let him return,
Too obsessed with matters of pride,
Yes, pride, the same thing that destroyed me,
It shall destroy him too.

Scars

The horrors of the past burn in clandestine scars,
And I laugh at the conspicuous ones.
Who shall accept these skeletons in my closet?
They haunt every dream turned nightmare
And every smile tainted with tears.

The nights grow excited at my incessant pain,
They have seen sufferings of a greater degree,
And they seem determined to promote mine.
I beg of them to let the horror pass,
And they laugh devilishly.

Come to me...

In the void, my eyes search for a glimpse of you,
My ears strain to hear your sweet laugh,
My body drifts into the nothingness of emptiness.
Will you not come and wipe my tears?
Come back darling, please come back.

Make me cry if it makes you smile,
Make me hurt if you must,
Do not leave me groping in the darkness,
For a love never to return.
I drown in a sea of my tears, will you not save me?
Save me darling, please save me.

The world around me seems so ruthless,
Rushing by, oblivious to my suffering,
And I will not complain if you are by my side.
I wish the rain would pour down
And wash my sins away.
Will you come back my darling? Please come back.



In the walls of my mind,
You're still here by my side,
Holding me tightly,
Whispering in my ears words of comfort,
And my heart chokes me,
Reminding me of how I ruined it all.
Do not let your heart forget me, my darling,
Will you not ask me to come close? Please ask me to come close.



Just let me be in your arms again,
I do not know if I can make it all okay,
But I know I can make you happy.
Don't run away from my love darling,
Don't be afraid,
I'll never force you to come to me.
I only beg, my heart begs, my soul begs.
Even the night tells me to abandon my tears,
But only your sweet laugh and warm arms can make them go away.
Come back darling, please come back.

Loving You

Sometimes I want to hold you,
Sometimes I want to let go.
Sometimes I feel I'm too old to
Be playing in the snow.

I, I keep on falling in and out of love, with you,
I, I never loved someone, the way that I'm loving you.


Sometimes I hear you say you love me,
And when I look, no one's there.
Sometimes I think I'm so unlucky,
When I sit down to compare.

I, I keep on falling in and out of love, with you,
I, I never loved someone, the way that I'm loving you.

Say it ain't so...

Sitting in the darkness debating good and bad,
Crying away all the tears I wish I never had,
Trying to move forward by I can't forget the past,
I never knew our love would ever end so fast.

Say you don't love me and you don't want me back,
I'll find some morbid dungeon where time loses track.

kuch lavz...

Koi khwahish apki adhoori na rahe,

Chahein jisko apko usse duri na rahe,
Khushiyon ke phool itne khilein apke,
Humari yaad bhi apke liye zaruri na rahe...

Hamlet's advice..

To call or not to call,
That is the question.
For it is nobler to resist the temptation,
Suffer the loneliness.
To seek his happiness,
To die, in a desperate wait.
To know, it was in vain.

Help

Hope is lost and I am dead,
I do not know what lies ahead.
Take your pity and leave now,
I know you don't care anyhow.

Difficulties of being alone

I am alone as the world closes in around me,
And I am jealous of him being so carefree.
I should not be, for all have troubles in life,
Yet the loneliness only adds to my endless strife.

A different kind of love...

The nights shall burn,
In flames of passion.
The bodies shall yearn,
As faces turn ashen.
With morning light,
The waves shall wash over,
The restless night,
Only souls to now savor.

Cry Alone

'Cry alone', he says, 'Like I did'.
How naive my sweet love is,
For he is so coveniently unaware
Of the endless nights I battle with,
Scarred with salty tears and failed dreams.






Yet I start afresh each day,
And happily, sweetly I call him
Sure to put on my calmest voice,
And keep strong my heart.
The albatross around my neck,
Whispers in my ears to let go,
And let the tears pour like blood
From valleys I carved on my wrists,
But I dare not upset him,
I dare not encroach upon his space.

And when my body crosses the bridge of concious control,
I dare to encroach and he reminds me,
Reminds me of how easy I have it,
How blessed I am.

And I am blessed, aren't I?
Having a friend who teaches me the lessons of life,
Teaches me how cruel the world is,
So I can practice pragmatism.
No words of love and comfort for me.
No, they only destroy, like they did when I first met him.

So let me continue my silent tears,
That fall every time he snaps the phone,
I'm glad my sweet love does not see them,
He is too pragmatic for emotions.
Yes emotions destroy and I shall never learn,
But they also bring the success he can only dream of,
He shall never understand..

Discarded Memories...

I ask myself often if there is something, anything I could do to win him back. So desperate am I for a solution that I have considered jumping in front of a bus, hoping beyond hope that pity will be enough to bring him back. I struggle to think of something else besides him. Even my previous obsessive infatuation took no longer than six months to turn into repulsion. With this gentleman, I seem no closer than I was on the first day. Pillow covers bear the scars of spilled kajal and the ominous blade carries blood residue and as if by the hands of god, the music compilation I made for him plays on a discarded computer. All the grave mistakes I made flash by my eyes burning holes in my innards. I can feel the tears on the brink of my eyelashes and as another song plays they finally begin to fall.

There is no rest, no respite from the shame of my adultery and my pathetic attempts at sadistic manipulations. The next song rightly asks how things will ever be mended, how those sweet moments in the rain will be ever be righted. His memories haunt me, so weighty, so overwhelming. I dream of love as time runs through my head. It makes sense at last. The world is right because of him, the world is wrong because of him. He disturbs my dreams and my thoughts, never resting until he has made me cry.

I am quick to point that I had left no stone unturned to make him happy, but alas, I could not change myself until it was too late. It may not make sense to him that I have changed, but it is only for me to understand that I have my self respect back now that I have changed. I’ve been kissed by a rose on the grey. No less than a drug addiction that I steal highs from in our short moments of interaction.

I read my memoirs and laugh at how accurately my life had resembled a soap opera. I played with his feelings, yes; I created such drama, just to keep it going. And I feel contorted now; twisted beyond repair were my past actions. Please forgive me I can’t stop loving you. There’s nothing more that I would like to do than leave his life and allow him to start afresh, but his memories are holding me back. What have you done to me, loved me beyond understanding, beyond he boundaries of heaven and hell. Sweet desert rose, each shadow veils a secret promise. Each day bears a new seed of hope.

Lullaby

March on, no end in sight,
Hoist the sails, over the sea,
Sail on and on.

No sight of land for days and days,
As cattle on rotting bread we graze,
Maggots for company,stinking of brandy,
Hoist the sails, over the sea,
Sail on and on.

The sun rises, the sun sets,
Wind blows, the mind forgets,
Drifting off to Neverland,
To the noose hand-in-hand!

Reflections of a Dangerous Mind

The heat of the winter sun envelops me,
And the bile rises in my stomach.
The lethargic smell of pills and bile and blood,
Comes flooding back again with the rising cud.

I remember each of the hundred and fifty pills,
That I stuffed down my throat.
Carefully combined in the most potent combination,
After days of research with the most serious intention.

I remember the shock of the aftermath,
The food I couldn't eat and the water I couldn't drink.
The regurgitation of friendly medicines each time,
The wind pipe gone pulpy as I pretend to be fine.

He thinks he is the only one,
Whose friends warn him to never return.
Alas if he knew that when I was saved from the face of death,
I promised another I wouldn't see him till my dying breath.

I am a fool, yes I am,
For loving him so.
He will always find excuses not to come back to me,
For his ego will never accept my sincere apology.

Tired

I'm tired and I want him back,
But I do not know what I lack..

Choice

Nightmares fill my nights instead of your sweet voice,
I wish I could turn back time and make a different choice...

Bizzare...

I wake up in the morning with bad breath,
I know I'll be alone until my death....

Aye

And Satan laughed his evil laugh and said,
"Let there be night,
And no hope in sight!"
And all the sweet angels grandly said "Aye!"

Judged

When the judge becomes the judged, then comes realization,
Walk another's path and see, how your life is utterly fiction.

Warped & Twisted

Harsh words and violent blows,
Hidden secrets nobody knows.
Eyes are open, hands are fisted,
Deep inside I'm warped and twisted.
So many tricks and so many lies,
Too many whens and too many whys.
I'm not special, I'm not gifted,
I'm just me, warped and twisted.
Sleeping awake and choking on a dream,
Listening loudly to a silent scream.
Call my mind, the number's unlisted,
Lost in someone so warped and twisted.
On my knees, alive but dead,
Look at all the blood I've bled.
I'm not gone but my mind has drifted,
Don't expect much, I'm warped and twisted.
Burnt out, wasted, empty and hollow,
Today's just yesterday's tomorrow.
The sun's died out, the ashes sifted,
I'm still here, warped and twisted.

Real

No one hears me, understands me
I speak to the silence
Hoping that someone will hear my words,
Hoping to find love,
I wish for a stronger, better life
Filled with everlasting determination.
I dream the future, but hold on to the past,
My body is brimmed with so many confusions
Am I really here experiencing fullness?
I must be, the pain is so real.

Dry Humour

You broke my heart when you left me alone,
But you also broke something else I own.
I ran down the stairs to answer your phone,
I tripped and fell and broke my back bone.

HAHAHAHAHA

No Replacements

You left for good, never to return,
And again I must move on,
Empty on the inside,
I wait for another dawn.

I cannot search for another,
He will be substitute at best,
Someone I will pretend is you,
In hopes that I may rest.

His arms will cause repulsion,
And I will run from his touch,
How can I pretend I love another,
When I miss you so very much.

His Anthem...

You can't do nothin right, you f***ing cry all night,
You're a lier and a bitch, you're an ugly lookin witch,
Cry your heart out! Cry your f***ing heart out!

You make me wanna run away, all you know is how to play,
All you do is break my heart, you think you're so f***ing smart,
Cry your heart out! Cry your f***ing heart out!

Cry my darling, cry your heart out!
You broke my trust baby doll, cry your f***ing heart out!
You're a waste of space, and I hate your face,
Cry your heart out! Cry your f***ing heart out!

We'll get it on everyday, you think it's gonna be okay,
You're a crazy f***ing stalker, you can go suck another,
I aint gonna forget what you did to me,
Cry your heart out! Cry your f***ing heart out!

All the shitty gifts you made, gonna burn them all away,
With the memories I have of you, making love to me like I wanted to,
Your sacrifices all undone, I won't forgive you thats certain,
Cry your heart out! Cry your f***ing heart out!

Cry my darling, cry your heart out!
You broke my trust baby doll, cry your f***ing heart out!
You're a waste of space, and I hate your face,
Cry your heart out! Cry your f***ing heart out!

It's hard to forget

Reach out and touch the pain,
That emanates from me.
Hold me in your arms again,
And caress me softly.

I miss your soft voice,
That sung sweetly to me.
I wish I had the choice,
To forget you easily.

Patthar Dil

Patthar bhi pighalte hain isse moam ki tarah,
Jis juu-e-dard se apka dil bey-fikr raha.



Translation:-
Even stones melt like wax from this river of pain,
This suffering which your heart ignores as inane.

Kaun hai woh?

Betahaasha jiye zindagi, par na samajh hai nahi.
Kasak hai gazab, par ashk girte nahi.
Awaaz mein hai chipa, chehra jo na dikha,
Faqat na sahi, par woh saalim bhi nahi.

Redemption

In the tenebrous night, the candle flickers.
The wind outside is tepid, calm, and treacherous.
They are calling for him.
Door to door they march,
Unnerved onlookers gasp in horror,
As the sanctity of their homes is disturbed.

They find him.
His vacant eyes hide no emotion.
He is wafted to the town plaza.
He has committed a sin.
To be hanged unto death.
How divine it is to escape redemption.

No one will deny it...

The heart is marred,
Thought there are many to adorn it.
He says, majestically,
"You'll find someone new."
But who shall I award it to,
When it is no longer mine to give?

The eyes are blind to all else,
So how can I set my eyes upon another?
His voice resonates in my entire being,
So how can I hearken another's pleas?
No one can spurn a sin forever,
But only few are blessed with eternal love.
Ask the God himself or anyone you believe in,
They will not deny it.

Prophecy

She crushes the discolored leaves,
And drops them in the water, and stirs.
Over the fire, the water begins to heat,
And she stirs.

The bedimmed room is enveloped in its potency,
As she brings the boiling liquid to the table.
Poured into a cup, inhaled, drunk,
By the intoxicated patron.

The cup is snatched immediately,
And the pounding hearts disturb the lull.
She smirks at her unsuspecting patron.
Her eyes widen and water.

Dismayed, the patron walks out of the door,
To the sunny suffocating street.
He rushes, head-down, to his haven.
He rummages his pockets for the keys,
And finds them.

He hurries into the house, and strips.
He breathes, deeply.
He sees a decrepit man,
Crippled. Dependent. Addicted.
Could she be right?

He grips it in his hand,
And admires its beauty.
Before he had a chance,
Abrupt gunfire ends his tale.
She was right.

I shall still sing his song.....sweet intoxication of love..............

I face the world with a smile,
No one knows what is hidden inside.
They see only happiness,
They cant see the tears I've cried.

When I am alone I hurt,
Because here I do it well.
In front of all the watchful eyes
My heaven turns to hell.

The judge and jury awaits me,
Everyone has a say.
In a life that hangs suspended
For yet another day.

Who are they to judge,
If what I've done is right or wrong?
In the end I gave him up,
But inside I'm singing his song.

I don't know how to find,
The strength I thought I had.
If only I could play tough,
It wouldn't be so bad.

They say that life goes on,
And someday I'll smile again.
But, how do they know what I feel
Without ever feeling my pain?

I saw him just the other day,
And his smile is still the same.
He looked at me so sweetly,
But he played the silent game.

I wonder if he will love me forever,
The more I ask, the more I do not know.
He may move on some time, perhaps,
But I shall still sing his song.

What is it?

Window panes come crashing down
Amidst the tears and pain
The hope vanishes into the air.
Up above through twilight
Shadows cast across the floor,
Reflections of the past.
Trembling thoughts of a lonely soul.
Dwelling deep within it is
A mystical sense of reality,
Captured by the craze,
All in bewilderment.
Creatures of the dimness,
Chattering in the darkness.
Everything slows in stillness.
What is this I see?

I am not worth it any more

I've been pushed down so many times,
I feel this time will be the last.
As I lay here fading quickly,
My thoughts are invaded by memories of my past.
The shame and rejection is overwhelming.
As I lay here on the floor,
I have no strength to get up,
I'm not worth it any more.

Strangely Straightforward...

Today I left something behind at home,
As I walked along the winding cobbled streets.
Today my eyes did not deceive me,
As I looked into his eyes and saw only lust.
Today, I felt strangely calm, yet cold somehow,
As the sun shone upon our faces.
What was it about today, that I was so different?
Oh right, I left my heart at home!

He calls it the path to happiness,
He says that is how life should be.
But what about the overwhelming emotion,
That can bring you to the brink of painful ecstasy?
Yes there is betrayal in life,
But does that mean we forget we have a heart?

Remorse

I miss the touch of your skin,
And way you make me give in.
I miss the softness of your lips,
And touching them with my fingertips.

Let the salty tears not fall,
There is no use in it at all.
You will not hear my painful cries,
You will call them foolish and unwise.

Fictional Love

Fighting the tears back, I anxiously wait,
Praying that all will turn out to be great.
It is my chance to show that I am more,
And that pain is something I can endure.

I wish I was not so jealous for his attention,
It might end all the animosity and tension.
But how can one avoid love to the point of obsession?
Our love story sounds perfect for a work of fiction.

Ek dost ne kaha...

Kuch dur chalne pe ahsaas hua…
Ki kya main kuch bhul aaya hun…
Haan dhara to saath hai mere …
Par kya vyom kahin bhul aaya hun…
Vicharon kea jab manthan ke baad sochta hun punah…
Ki kshitij ke band talon ke bheetar main utar paata anttah..
Chal kapat aur andhakaar mein lipt rehta hun magar…
Ki aaj bhi main sach ujaala hi dhoondhta hun har jagah…
Har or dekha aur dekha aur anttah yahi ha paaya…
Haan dur nahi hai mitron lo ab “parlay hai aaya”…
Mrityu aur sangharsh se jhujhte logon se pucho…
Ki jeevan khud kahe jo le lo mujhko to kya jiyoge tum ye socho…
Khun hi hai aur raktstrav hai har or…
Ghum li charon dishaayein aur paaya kolahal har or…
Maut ko kareeb laati aatank ki ye majboot dor…

What is wrong with me?---Epitomy of pathetic poetry....i need inspiration besides the tears..

The more I run away away from him,
The faster I want to run back.
The more I promise not to speak to him,
The more I realize what I lack.

The more I think I will not cry,
The heavier the tears become.
What the hell is wrong with me?
Why cannot I become numb?

Losers of the World Unite!!

Waiting anxiously as my world falls apart,
I'm smiling like a retard about to fart.
I'm a nervous wreck in utter ruins like Greece,
And I'm running around as if I'm wanted by police.

You can fool a fool with foolish tricks,
So for a fool like me nine is six.
Look at my teeth so golden white,
I can break yours in a cat fight.

Yeah sure I can solve a puzzle or two,
Why do people look at me as if I'm poo?
I love my pink and my white and black,
Come on world cut us losers some slack!

Follow

I would empty my soul at this moment,
Of the dreams that have gathered in me,
I would beat with your heart as it beats,
I would follow your soul as it leads.

Passionate Nights...discretion advised

Innocent guy of my dreams,
Life is not what it seems.
Let me grant you what you desire,
A deadly kiss or the skin you admire.

Let me love you till you forget the pain,
Let me love you till you go insane.
Let me remind you of that passionate night,
When we lay so close in the candle light.

Mon Amour

On the misty peak of a distant mountain,
Where dreams of the soul unfold,
Where the dew of a pale winter morning,
Lies glowing upon the white gold.
There, upon the shimmering crown,
There, where there is only renown,
Where touching the sky is not absurd,
And the heart hums as a humming bird.
There shall I be forever more,
Stay with me there, mon amour.

The Heart is Changed

In the dim light of a desolate room
I anxiously wait for his call.
I could be out somewhere,
Committing the atrocities I would earlier,
But the heart is changed.

The intoxication of cigarettes and alcohol
To while away the pain
Is tempting,
Very tempting indeed,
And those who offer this lifestyle are plenty.
But the heart is changed.

The objects of my torture,
Those glimmering sharp objects
Call sweetly and gently to me.
I would never hesitate.
I would never think twice.
But the heart is changed.

The heart has changed,
Sometimes I wish it had not.
For I would not then be in such a dichotomy,
So conflicted from within.
I would not have tasted the bitter loneliness.
But the heart is changed.
The heart is changed.

Fatal Attempts at Prose

My friends ask me why I seem so sad all the time! Strange! I'm almost glad they noticed, at least somebody did! They say I've changed, and I mockingly ask them, "Besides the fact that I've put on a dozen kilos and stopped wearing make-up?". They all seem to think that the change is more prolific than that. They ask inquisitively of the reasons for this change, quick to point out how happy to go lucky a person I was. And I am quick to remind them that I still am, but perhaps I have grown more accustomed to being silent instead of always having something to say, as if always in my world thinking of something. I also point out that my final year in college has gotten the best of me- I have been bogged down with the hectic timetable, the annoying teachers and of course, the nightmare of CAT. I hear in retort that a lot of people have the same worries but none have changed as drastically as me.

My mind ponders over to Avi, wondering how I can ever tell them that I have seen the bottom of the pool of death and have swum back up, and how I have lost the most precious person in my life as a result of my mistakes. They sense I have gone into deep thought again and point out that even though I have many problems to face, it does not necessitate me becoming gloomy and pensive so suddenly. They almost pester me to return to my 'worldly' ways. I look down, and sitting on the floor, I realize how life has brought me to the ground from such heights. I realize that I can never truly make up for my mistakes, but somehow I feel liberated, because no matter if the world, or rather, my dear Avi, understands this or not, I have, unequivocally, changed.

I know this not because I am gloomy all the time and have changed the people I associate with, but because I appreciate the consequences of my actions. The more I think about my mistakes and the smear campaign launched against me, the more I feel a murderous instinct within me. But that is not the point, the point is that I know now, it is not just a phrase, "As you sow, so shall you reap.".

Alone

Purity once had a name,
And love once had a face.
Life once had a meaning,
And once I was safe.
Once there was joy,
And once I could laugh.
Happiness once was alive,
And once I had another half.
Once I shared his love,
Once I was by his side,
Once I felt I fitted,
So quickly that died.
His strength was so great,
His generosity so vast,
All I ever wanted,
Was for it to last.
Fate maybe had another plan,
Because it all fell apart,
The hand too big for the glove.
Now it's all died away,
Happiness, joy, love; all memories.
Now I walk alone in this dark, dark world,
With no light to guide my way.

Tears

Laughing.
At my jokes.
Screaming.
Crying.
Inside of me.
Having fun with my friends.
Streams of tears drip down my heart.
I smile when I see you.
You smile when you see me.
I bleed when I see you.
You smile when you see me.
Screaming.
Crying.
Inside.
Laughing.
Smiling.
Goodbye.

The End

He no longer has a heart,
For this is how he dealt with the pain.
He is dead,
And soon I shall be too.
The journey is drawing to a close,
It ends this night.

Promised Love

In the deathly darkness of the night,
The fingers struggle to scribble.
The bruised skin contradicting the mind,
But not the heart.

Love is not what it was once upon a time,
It has been lost to the cruelty of the world.
And whence the tears never came,
Now burns with salty droplets.

Let the revelation come,
Let the body be undone,
As it begs to be ridden,
From the painful reality.

Let the wolves cry in the night,
For a child has died,
A child promised love,
A child promised love....

The time is not far

The mirror reflects a sickly face,
Paled by the tides of life,
A heart, twisted by poisonous love,
And skin, scarred by sins.

Look to the skies for mercy,
And receive stones of vengence.
For the time is not far,
When the ultimate sacrifice will be made.

Mistakes...

I love you more than I have ever known,
Those puffy lips,
Those mischievous eyes,
You made my heart melt,
Then boil into a roaring fire,
I now know,
What my eyes could not see,
You are the only one for me.

Every night those tears flow,
Being alone without anyone,
Anyone to care about me,
I look at the sky and know
The many mistakes I made,
Shall never be forgiven.

Waiting...

Time clicks as I await,
The hour ends before my take,
Sitting, thinking, waiting; my mind escapes..

The day grows old as night approaches,
Wolves crying, dogs howling; anticipating,
Watching, staring, seeing..nothing..

Silence begins the day,
As morning comes without notice,
Tears begin to fall, slowly...

The day moves on without hope,
Wishing to be what is not to be,

The sun moves to its peak,
Without a whisper or retreat,

Time moving, but still empty,
Stomach aching, curling,
Still waiting..............

Vernian Guilt

Like the waters that carve the gorges in rocks,
The tears cut through the soft cheeks, gashing them,
Leaving behind salty traces of muffled cries.

And like Vernian worlds,
The guilt finds its way to the core;
Not in an abyss of abundance, but pain.

Hidden Meanings....

It has become too dark to see the stars,
The menacing clouds have had their way.
The moon struggles to be complete again,
But like love it dies at the light of day.

Dil hai to pyar do

Manana hai is ruthe dil ko,
Pyar ki dua hai to pyar do.
Ashkon ka chor do saath,
Khushi ka thaam lo haanth.

Sazaa dena tumhara farz nahi,
Chahe jisne jo baat kahi.
Dil hai to pyaar do,
Chahe aashiq dushvaar ho.

A Message From God

God took my hand and said,
"Love if you want to be loved.
Let the hate never enter you,
For it will destroy you.
Those who see such tumultuous times,
All wish it was otherwise.
But did you not preach that,
Things worth having are tested by such times.
You run away from the responsibility,
Of facing the hardships ahead,
But you must face them head on",
You have miles to go before bed.

Gaye Woh Din

Zubaan bhool gayi mithaas,
Ab ashkon ka hai rukha swaad.
Haanth bhool gaye woh narmi,
Pyar na raha unke darmiyaan mein.

Lost Love

The most precious love,
Lost because of fault,
Is it not enough to repent?
Apparently it is not!

The Night

Where are the smiles that shone upon the face?
They have disappeared with the storm.
The moonlight does not abandon the moon,
Even though it disappears for a while.
For it knows the moon shall return.
Deep in the night when all is silent,
Come back to me,
And say my love is true.

The crucial question...

Everything will end if I fail,
But will I succeed if I persist?

I do not know

Lost in the edges of time,
I know not where I go.
How will the hate ever end?
I admit I do not know.

Strange Responses

It is strange that the closer you are,
The more my heart wishes otherwise.
Yet when you are not near but far,
I wish I could see you with my eyes.

The Greatest Battle

The greatest battle is with the self,
And that must be fought alone.
No one can lend a helping hand,
You cannot escape the unknown.

Burned Away

Questions remain unanswered,
And life has been put on hold.
Has the love that once was,
Burned away like kings of old?

Alone

It is terrifying to be alone,
But alone is what I must be,
For I cannot make him happy.

Bulimia

With endless cramps convoluting about,
Blistering bitterness is blurted out.
I gag my so-called sins in doubt.

In the nightmare I see fantasy.
In tortuous pain I feel ecstasy.
Someday I'll become what they want me to be.

lost...

my only prayer from now shall be,
i hope that deaths finds me quickly.

Heroes

Heroes are not made by the acts they do,
But by those that they do not.
For easy it is to betray when betrayed,
And to hurt another, when you have been hurt.

But try to bring a smile to the person who breaks your heart,
And be kind to one who has insulted you..

And you will find that you have changed...
You have changed into a H.........

Time does not bend to my will...

Battles are won and lost,
But the war never will end,
Time has its own flow,
For me it shall never bend.

Complete Me....

Come sit with me, for a while,
Let us share a few words, and more.
I'll try not to touch the soft hair falling on your face,
And your sweet lips that bear a hint of a smile.
I'll try not to kiss your sweet skin that drives me crazy,
But you will not stop me, I know.

You will not stop before you take my face in your palms,
You will not stop before your lips touch mine.
And why should you?
Why should there be distance between us,
Barriers in our love?

What has the world ever achieved without love?
What makes more sense than loving another?

The ache of waking up without you in the morning,
Breaks my heart like feet upon thin ice,
And like water erodes the solid stones slowly,
So is my body eroded of ecstasy by the weathering of time.

Come fill my body again with your love,
Complete me.

Lost Hope

The blood begins to flow,
From the tired fingers now bruised.
Five months have passed,
But hope still remains skewed.

The lips have lost their softness,
From whispering unanswered prayers.
Love still remains a dream,
A dream that the daylight tears.

The eyes only harbor loneliness,
Sure that they will not see joy.
What is left in this world, but hate?
The heart is now a useless toy.

We'd be unstoppable...

Come and lay right on my bed, sit and drink some wine
I'll try not to make you cry
And if you'd get inside my head, then you'd understand
Then you'd understand me
Why I've felt so alone, why I kept myself from love
And you became my favorite drug
So let me take you right now and swallow you down,
I need you inside

If we had this night together
If we had a moment to ourselves
If we had this night together, then we'd be unstoppable

Do you think that this is right, or is it really wrong
I know that this is what we've been wanting
And all this is burning in my soul, it fills up to my throat
It fills up till my heart is breaking

If we had this night together
If we had a moment to ourselves
If we had this night together, then we'd be unstoppable

When I wake up without you, knowing you're not there
I'm only feeling half as good
Now I'm gonna find a way
To wrap you in my arms, you make me feel alive....

The Life of Love is Leaving...

The life of love slowly leaves me,
As the curves of your face become blurry,
For the tears darken not just the eyes,
But also the hope that in them lies.

I despise the cruelty in you,
The reasons you give in lieu,
The immunity you have to my tears,
And the way you play with my fears.

Let me bring my lips to your eyes,
So I may drink each tear that hides.
Give me the pain that lies in your heart,
Let me love you as much I can on my part.

Let your mind not play tricks on our love,
For punishment rains endlessly from above,
Let me go or let me come to you,
Those truly loved are very few.

A Lost Battle

The sun looks down upon the wasted lands,
Where drums beat with the chief's commands.
The horn has been sounded and feet march on cue,
The crashing of metal with itself is not new.

The wind blows strongly, combating the discord,
Yet the cries are too loud to be simply ignored.
They all seem to scurry, but it is all in vain,
The ground shall be drenched in blood's rain.

Horror grips and chaos ensues,
The sky now bears crimson hues.

Ill Omen

Something festers in the heart like an ill omen.
It gives strength to the fear,
And sets the will against effort.
Is it the consequence of some evil doing?
Or is it the fruit of sins?

loss

Let blood be spilled tonight,
I cannot fight the never-ending darkness,
Hope is lost and the war is over,
Lies and hatred have won over love,
Let blood be spilled tonight...

come back

Come back from the shadows that separate us,
Forget the bad blood spilled.
There is no shortage of love between us,
So why make each other suffer?

It is hard to move on, I know,
But is it not harder to stay apart?
I do not want it to be too late,
I want to look after you, my love...
Come back...come back...

stupid rhymes

The pain is intolerable, but I must live,
What you want is what I cannot give.
Each rejection brings me closer to death,
And every second I hold my breath.

Please forgive me if you can,
Strange are the ways of man.
I live only to keep you smiling,
That's why I keep myself from dialing.

forever

time clicks away and we grow apart,
but you shall forever stay in my heart...

Giving

True giving happens as I overflow from the inside,
I cannot help but share.
There is so much love within
That it has to flow to others or I shall burst open
There is no thinking involved, no willpower
It just flows out.

chorus

my chorus now shall forever be,
I do not deserve to live happily.

forgive and forget

I carry a ripped heart and a tattered soul.
I chased the light over shadowed paths
But passion was rewarded with endless dark nights.
Sins can never be forgiven for men do not forget.

love and lovers

I shall love my sorrow for it never abandons me,
Like lovers who make false promises.
It says upfront that it will make me cry,
Not like lovers who promise only smiles.

Of Love and Life

Gone are the days of wishing and hoping,
Shadowed by the brutality of reality...
The night and day seem to be eloping,
And the lands are gray that once were green...

Resurrection

I wander the lonely lands,
In search of his remains,
So that I may resurrect him.
The lands that know no love,
That only know the self.
So be it.
Who says you cannot resurrect the dead?
Love is more powerful than death, is it not?
For death may end life, but it cannot end love.

I Hate the Rain

The rain is repulsive to me.
The muddy puddles I once dipped my feet in,
Now seem vile and filthy.
The touch of weighty raindrops,
Now leaves nothing but prickliness.

Gone are the days of singing in the rain,
All I want now is to run away into shade,
Where not a trace of rain can be found.
Gone are the days when the coolness of the rain,
Brought comfort to my burning body,
All I want now is the chilling cold to go away,
And warmth to be reborn in my soul.

The Candle

The candle burns and melts,
As its light flickers in doubt.

The candle can only stand,
If it stands upon its own melted flesh,
That strengthens and solidifies.

Someday

You belong to me,
Like a tree to its roots,
Strong is the bond.
Imperishable.

Much water has flown under the bridge,
But the flood has not yet ended.
It shall someday, someday.

Food = Love = Life

You're my honey,
Sweet and runny.

I can lick you up,
Like maple syrup,
And eat you whole,
Like a cream roll.
I can swig you down,
Without a frown.
I can sniff you in,
To make my head spin.
I can dip myself in you,
Like chocolate fondue.
You're my food, I love you!!

remember...for 11th aug

(Love...Every time I see you, hahaha)

Do you remember
When we fell in love
We were young and innocent then
Do you remember how it all began
It just
Seemed like heaven
So why
Did it end

Do you remember
Back in the fall
We'd be together all day long
Do you remember
Us holding hands
In each other's eyes we'd stare
Tell me

Do you remember the time
When we fell in love
Do you remember the time
When we first met girl
Do you remember the time
(Oh I)
When we fell in love
Do you remember the time

Do you remember
How we used to talk
You know we'd stay on the phone at night till dawn
Do you remember
All the things we said
Like I
Love you so
I'll never
Let you go

Do you remember
Back in the spring
Every morning bird would sing
Do you remember
Those special times
That just go on and on
In the back of my mind

Do you remember the time
(Oh I)
When we fell in love
Do you remember the time
When we first met girl
Do you remember the time
(Oh I)
When we fell in love
Do you remember the time

Those sweet memories
Will always be
Dear to me
And girl
No matter what we said
I will never forget what we did
Now baby

Do you remember the time
(Do you remember)
When we fell in love
Do you remember the time
When we first met girl
Do you remember the time
(Oh I)
When we fell in love
Do you remember the time
(Remember my baby)
Do you remember the time
(Cuz I remember)
When we fell in love
Do you remember the time
All in my mind girl
Do you remember the time
(Oh I)
When we fell in love
Do you remember the the time
(Remember my baby)

(Remember the times)
Whoo!
(Remember the times)
Do you remember girl
(Remember the times)
On the phone
You and me
(Remember the times)
Till dawn
Two or three
What about us girl
(Remember the times)
Do you
Do you
(Remember the times)
Do you
Do you
Do you
(Remember the times)
In the park
On the beach
(Remember the times)
You and me
In Spain
What about
What about
(Remember the times)
(rolls tongue)

(Remember the times)
Oh...in the park
(Remember the times)
After dark
Do you
Do you
Do you
(Remember the times)
Do you
Do you
Do you
Do you
(Remember the times)
Yeah
Yeah
Whoo!
(Remember the times..remember the times)