The other woman, they'd call me - but zero fucks for your labels. I hate that I can't bend you to my will. That's the real reason I hate myself. Because when creatures don't bend to my will, I throw them out of the window of my speeding car. Or chuck them in a dumpster with all the other things that lost their preciousness to me. And I cannot reconcile the fate I should leave you to with the fate I want to bestow upon you.
My struggle with depression and life after love, knowing now, that the days of innocence have expired...Moving on after pain, with some hope, and a little wisdom
Saturday, December 26
Fulfil
Come sit with me, for a while,
Let us share a few words, and more.
I'll try not to touch the soft hair falling on your face,
And your sweet lips that bear a hint of a smile.
I'll try not to kiss your sweet skin that drives me crazy,
But you will not stop me, I know.
You will not stop before you take my face in your palms,
You will not stop before your lips touch mine.
And why should you?
Why should there be distance between us,
Barriers in our love?
What has the world ever achieved without love?
What makes more sense than loving another?
The ache of waking up without you in the morning,
Breaks my heart like feet upon thin ice,
And like water erodes the solid stones slowly,
So is my body eroded of ecstasy by the weathering of time.
Come fill my body with your love,
Complete me.
Those Eyes
Save me from your eyes
For when they lock onto mine
They see who I am
And reveal parts of me
That even I dare not confront.
Saturday, December 12
Cylinder
Baby, baby, I don't deserve you
Can I put you in a bottle
To keep and preserve you
From the evil in this world
I'll never let it touch you
I'd take over the Pentagon
Where the nukes are hid
And point them at the ones
Who hurt you instead.
They say white is pure
But I think its red
The color of my blood
My love in it bled
Take all of me now
And ask of me anything
There's no escape from you
I'm not mine now Darling.
Tuesday, December 1
Your Beautiful Words
Floating in an ocean of your words
Listening to the chirping birds
I'm carried on waves to distant lands
Where I can rest in your soft sands
Letter to RAD - Take 3
hello, it’s been a few days since we last texted, and i’ve been reflecting on what you said. while i agreed with a few things, there were ...
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the dark parts - i tried to hide them, then treat them but in the end, i realized i’d have to live with them
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you’re not your cv or your waistline you’re not your parents or your sun sign you’re not your promotions or the money you make you’re just t...
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the bridge is broke between your hope and my reality the last hour spent on my lament yet you show no mercy