The undead wail at night,
In the defiled ruins of the dead.
As pale as shreds of cloud,
Their voices as deep as gorges,
Putrid now, like decaying wine, once good.
The mist falls from the blackened skies,
It's weight no longer supported,
Like the bones of the undead,
No one to do their bidding and lay them to rest.
They haunt the lonely wanderers,
Who come stumbling by their graves.
And then till madness steals them from themselves,
The undead torment their heavy minds and hearts.
Friday, July 31
Thursday, July 30
My Soulmate
He carries me up the stairs in his arms,
I can feel his heartbeat increase,
Still, he smiles at me with ease.
Outside the sun's rays pierce like arrows.
He says that he'll be fine,
And says, "You'll be mine".
It suddenly begins to rain upon us,
I say that the rain cannot hide his tears,
He tells me he shall conquer all my fears.
The rain stops but over the puddles he tries to jump,
"Please marry me", he begs,
"I would darling if I had legs."
I can feel his heartbeat increase,
Still, he smiles at me with ease.
Outside the sun's rays pierce like arrows.
He says that he'll be fine,
And says, "You'll be mine".
It suddenly begins to rain upon us,
I say that the rain cannot hide his tears,
He tells me he shall conquer all my fears.
The rain stops but over the puddles he tries to jump,
"Please marry me", he begs,
"I would darling if I had legs."
Wednesday, July 29
kuch khayal
Chand nahi taare nahi, kala aasmaan hi sahi,
Aap hamare har khayal mein, chahe baahon mein nahi..
Aap hamare har khayal mein, chahe baahon mein nahi..
Tuesday, July 28
kuch lavz..intezaar mein..
Saason ki narmi kati aankhon ki dhaar se,
Jism jal gaya apke daston ke waar pe.
Maut se bhi darr nahi jitna apke intezaar se.
Jism jal gaya apke daston ke waar pe.
Maut se bhi darr nahi jitna apke intezaar se.
Monday, July 27
Rain Rain Go Away, Come Again Another Day
The raindrops drench like they did before,
But my will is not what it was any more.
Strange that should be, for I feel much stronger,
But then why I can't I stay in the rain for longer?
There is too much pain to bear perhaps,
Too many memories that the rain unwraps,
Or maybe it is the curse of the lie,
And truth cannot defeat it by and by.
Must I die? Must I die? Must I Die?
But my will is not what it was any more.
Strange that should be, for I feel much stronger,
But then why I can't I stay in the rain for longer?
There is too much pain to bear perhaps,
Too many memories that the rain unwraps,
Or maybe it is the curse of the lie,
And truth cannot defeat it by and by.
Must I die? Must I die? Must I Die?
Sunday, July 26
just a thought...
life is like a magic show..u think its really magic but its just a trick ur not intelligent enough to spot..
Saturday, July 25
Obsessed
I twist and turn in bed,
As I grow more restless for you.
The lips want nothing but
The sweet sweat from your soft skin,
From the heat of love.
Three days have passed,
And the battle has begun again.
The battle for you,
The battle against you.
I know not what lies ahead,
I know not hope for myself.
I know that I must live,
To see the day of your return.
Every vision in every direction,
Reveals only your keen eyes,
And every sensation of my skin,
Resembles your touch.
I am obsessed,
I laugh indignantly.
I must wait patiently.
As I grow more restless for you.
The lips want nothing but
The sweet sweat from your soft skin,
From the heat of love.
Three days have passed,
And the battle has begun again.
The battle for you,
The battle against you.
I know not what lies ahead,
I know not hope for myself.
I know that I must live,
To see the day of your return.
Every vision in every direction,
Reveals only your keen eyes,
And every sensation of my skin,
Resembles your touch.
I am obsessed,
I laugh indignantly.
I must wait patiently.
Friday, July 24
A rainy day...
The clouds drift slowly by,
Hiding the sun in the sky.
They threaten to unleash the rain,
And the dampness covers the pane.
I rub the glass with my palm,
Trying my best to remain calm.
A dangerous storm is coming,
The birds have stopped humming.
But why does one fear the rain?
It will pass just like the pain!
Hiding the sun in the sky.
They threaten to unleash the rain,
And the dampness covers the pane.
I rub the glass with my palm,
Trying my best to remain calm.
A dangerous storm is coming,
The birds have stopped humming.
But why does one fear the rain?
It will pass just like the pain!
Thursday, July 23
When you walked out of my life
I realized that my hands were empty once more!
Was it the most beautiful sunset of my life?
When time paused and moved at its slowest pace
When every inch of the sun sinking into the sea
And every trickling moment of time
Stopped to admire our togetherness
When you walked out of my life
I realized even the sunset had lost its grace
Was it the most hearty smile i ever gave?
The happiest moment i ever lived?
And with the same joy and excitement,
When you blushed redder than the sun
The very charming smile that i received
When you walked out of my life
I realized that happiness was something i never believed ..
I realized that my hands were empty once more!
Was it the most beautiful sunset of my life?
When time paused and moved at its slowest pace
When every inch of the sun sinking into the sea
And every trickling moment of time
Stopped to admire our togetherness
When you walked out of my life
I realized even the sunset had lost its grace
Was it the most hearty smile i ever gave?
The happiest moment i ever lived?
And with the same joy and excitement,
When you blushed redder than the sun
The very charming smile that i received
When you walked out of my life
I realized that happiness was something i never believed ..
Wednesday, July 22
Strange Responses...
There are noises all around
But I can hear nothing of what they say.
The darkness envelopes me,
As the bright lights no longer pierce my eyes.
The anger burns inside,
Devouring my soul in its flames.
My body writhes in response,
Are those real flames?
But I can hear nothing of what they say.
The darkness envelopes me,
As the bright lights no longer pierce my eyes.
The anger burns inside,
Devouring my soul in its flames.
My body writhes in response,
Are those real flames?
Tuesday, July 21
Passion
The desire was palatable,
And the sparks were electrifying.
Your breath ripped me to shreds,
And your touch burnt me.
I ripped your clothes apart with my eyes,
From the lust of wanting your skin.
If I would have kissed you,
You would have been lying next to me.
But I didn't, I didn't.
And the sparks were electrifying.
Your breath ripped me to shreds,
And your touch burnt me.
I ripped your clothes apart with my eyes,
From the lust of wanting your skin.
If I would have kissed you,
You would have been lying next to me.
But I didn't, I didn't.
Monday, July 20
Many a Mile
On the road that leads to unknown lands,
I dream of my hands being held by his hands.
I walk on dutifully in the desert sands.
I walk on dutifully in the desert sands.
Salty pearls tease my face once in a while,
And my feet hurt from walking mile after mile.
The sun is cruel and the nightmares are vile,
But I have yet to go many a mile.
But I have yet to go many a mile.
I dream of my hands being held by his hands.
I walk on dutifully in the desert sands.
I walk on dutifully in the desert sands.
Salty pearls tease my face once in a while,
And my feet hurt from walking mile after mile.
The sun is cruel and the nightmares are vile,
But I have yet to go many a mile.
But I have yet to go many a mile.
Saturday, July 18
an inspiring note..
ek parinde ka dard bhara fasana tha,
toote the pankh fir bhi udte jana tha.
toofan to jhel gaya par hua afsos,
wahi daal tooti jis pe aashiyana tha...
toote the pankh fir bhi udte jana tha.
toofan to jhel gaya par hua afsos,
wahi daal tooti jis pe aashiyana tha...
So close yet so far...
I was hoping I would see you today,
So I wrote nothing.
The day has passed and so has the night,
But still no word from you.
How can you be so near and yet be so far?
You hate me don't you?
No urges to see me, no urges to love me?
Are you punishing me?
Be happy!
So I wrote nothing.
The day has passed and so has the night,
But still no word from you.
How can you be so near and yet be so far?
You hate me don't you?
No urges to see me, no urges to love me?
Are you punishing me?
Be happy!
Friday, July 17
What are you afraid of?
What are you afraid of?
You cannot stop the sadness,
Or the happiness.
As certainly as the wind does blow,
As surely as there is friend and foe,
As truly as there is right and wrong,
As strangely as life moves along,
The silence cannot hide the song.
You cannot stop the sadness,
Or the happiness.
As certainly as the wind does blow,
As surely as there is friend and foe,
As truly as there is right and wrong,
As strangely as life moves along,
The silence cannot hide the song.
Thursday, July 16
Hell
Foul mouths and forever broken trust,
Jump off the building now I must!
There is no hope of the happiness returning,
All that awaits are hell's fires and burning.
Jump off the building now I must!
There is no hope of the happiness returning,
All that awaits are hell's fires and burning.
Wednesday, July 15
Left With Me
The loneliness of the night tugs at me,
And in the darkness your shadow I see.
Yes, your shadow in the darkness.
No one knows how I live through the night,
And against the brutish demons I fight.
Monstrous demons, tempting demons.
It is a miracle when the morning comes,
And I see that relentless evil runs.
Yes, relentless evil runs but comes back.
I do not keep any hope for myself now,
For I know that it will leave me somehow.
Leave me sooner or later.
The purity of kindness and simplicity,
Is all I have left now with me.
Is all I have left now with me.
And in the darkness your shadow I see.
Yes, your shadow in the darkness.
No one knows how I live through the night,
And against the brutish demons I fight.
Monstrous demons, tempting demons.
It is a miracle when the morning comes,
And I see that relentless evil runs.
Yes, relentless evil runs but comes back.
I do not keep any hope for myself now,
For I know that it will leave me somehow.
Leave me sooner or later.
The purity of kindness and simplicity,
Is all I have left now with me.
Is all I have left now with me.
Tuesday, July 14
Abrupt Endings...
When the lights are turned off,
And there is not a thing in sight,
I'm gonna stand by you and fight,
The darkness.
When your friends are gone,
And your family doesn't understand,
I'm gonna wipe your tears with my hand,
And kiss you softly.
When you say the most evil things,
And try to punish me for hurting you,
I'm gonna listen silently and not do,
Anything.
And there is not a thing in sight,
I'm gonna stand by you and fight,
The darkness.
When your friends are gone,
And your family doesn't understand,
I'm gonna wipe your tears with my hand,
And kiss you softly.
When you say the most evil things,
And try to punish me for hurting you,
I'm gonna listen silently and not do,
Anything.
Monday, July 13
A Walk at Midnight
The soft wind touches my skin,
As if it were caressing me.
The moon shines in the inky sky,
As if it were smiling at me,
And with its light, my hope emerges,
Hope of happier days and happier nights.
As if it were caressing me.
The moon shines in the inky sky,
As if it were smiling at me,
And with its light, my hope emerges,
Hope of happier days and happier nights.
Sunday, July 12
A break-up song...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J1rIzP_tAjQ
I wish I could show
That I'm happy for you
But I cant.
Is it just my mistake
Or are you willing to take
A part of the blame.
Cause all the times that you said
It wouldn't end this way
Now what have you got to say,
Now what have you got to say,
For it ending this way,
For it ending this way...
I bet you didn't mean it when you said that
You wouldn't leave me alone
Cause the way that you left me
In such a mess
To face the world
On my own
All the lies you believed
Even I didn't conceive
How could you?
Cause maybe you lied,
When you said you would be
With me until the end of time
Maybe you lied
Maybe you lied...
I still cant stop loving you
No matter how hard I try
I cant stop loving you
But I want you to feel the pain
I want you to feel the pain
The pain
The pain
The pain
That you gave to me
When you left me in such a mess
If was my fault I confess
But are you willing to take
A part of the blame
It wasn't just my mistake
It was yours too.
But I love you
I still love you.
And I don't wanna cry anymore
No I don't wanna cry anymore
I don't wanna cry but you know why...
You know why, I'm gonna cry
Cause you're the first and last person
I ever truly loved
And I hope that you see that some day
I hope, that you can see that some day...
I wish I could show
That I'm happy for you
But I cant.
Is it just my mistake
Or are you willing to take
A part of the blame.
Cause all the times that you said
It wouldn't end this way
Now what have you got to say,
Now what have you got to say,
For it ending this way,
For it ending this way...
I bet you didn't mean it when you said that
You wouldn't leave me alone
Cause the way that you left me
In such a mess
To face the world
On my own
All the lies you believed
Even I didn't conceive
How could you?
Cause maybe you lied,
When you said you would be
With me until the end of time
Maybe you lied
Maybe you lied...
I still cant stop loving you
No matter how hard I try
I cant stop loving you
But I want you to feel the pain
I want you to feel the pain
The pain
The pain
The pain
That you gave to me
When you left me in such a mess
If was my fault I confess
But are you willing to take
A part of the blame
It wasn't just my mistake
It was yours too.
But I love you
I still love you.
And I don't wanna cry anymore
No I don't wanna cry anymore
I don't wanna cry but you know why...
You know why, I'm gonna cry
Cause you're the first and last person
I ever truly loved
And I hope that you see that some day
I hope, that you can see that some day...
Saturday, July 11
I wish
I wish I could see you smile,
And touch you for a while,
Softly caressing your hair,
And your lips.
I wish I could hear the beat of your heart,
Pounding as we no longer need to be apart.
I wish to show you the kindness in me,
And the childishness you love to see.
And touch you for a while,
Softly caressing your hair,
And your lips.
I wish I could hear the beat of your heart,
Pounding as we no longer need to be apart.
I wish to show you the kindness in me,
And the childishness you love to see.
Friday, July 10
Thursday, July 9
So tempting indeed...
The red heat burns the flesh,
And the dark waters seem so soothing.
The green forest is so inviting,
And voices call from within it.
But the simple muddy road is what I take.
If I let them, the reins will take control,
And the horses shall speed towards the brick road.
The brick road, upon which I once travelled.
But the day grows longer as does my smile,
And I march on without resting for a while.
And the dark waters seem so soothing.
The green forest is so inviting,
And voices call from within it.
But the simple muddy road is what I take.
If I let them, the reins will take control,
And the horses shall speed towards the brick road.
The brick road, upon which I once travelled.
But the day grows longer as does my smile,
And I march on without resting for a while.
Wednesday, July 8
Sweetest Death....
Dying from the stabs of my love,
Would be the sweetest death....
To see his face before all ends,
Would be the sweetest death....
Would be the sweetest death....
To see his face before all ends,
Would be the sweetest death....
Tuesday, July 7
How ?
Oh mother, how will your fever come down?
I'll get you sweets and never will frown.
Oh father, how do I get you to rest and sleep?
I will be what you want and will never weep.
Oh brother, how do I ease the pain in your eye?
I will give you mine, but mother and father will die.
Oh grandfather, how will you be able to walk again?
I will give you grandchildren and banish your pain.
Oh grandmother, won't you wipe your tears?
I will call you everyday to remove your fears.
Oh cousins, will you not make your parents happy?
I will sacrifice for you and not be crabby.
Oh lover, will you not accept me?
I will fight the world you'll see!
I'll get you sweets and never will frown.
Oh father, how do I get you to rest and sleep?
I will be what you want and will never weep.
Oh brother, how do I ease the pain in your eye?
I will give you mine, but mother and father will die.
Oh grandfather, how will you be able to walk again?
I will give you grandchildren and banish your pain.
Oh grandmother, won't you wipe your tears?
I will call you everyday to remove your fears.
Oh cousins, will you not make your parents happy?
I will sacrifice for you and not be crabby.
Oh lover, will you not accept me?
I will fight the world you'll see!
Face the world on my own
Do you not hear the cries?
Or remember the lullabies?
You left me all alone,
To face the world on my own.
A family I must take care of now,
A caregiver I have to be somehow.
You left me all alone,
To face the world on my own.
A successful career I must make,
And your help I cannot take.
You left me all alone,
To face the world on my own.
I struggle against the madness each day,
But not a word of it I must say.
You left me all alone,
To face the world on my own.
Time will pass and years will go by,
You'll never forgive me and I know why,
You left me all alone,
To face the world on my own.
Or remember the lullabies?
You left me all alone,
To face the world on my own.
A family I must take care of now,
A caregiver I have to be somehow.
You left me all alone,
To face the world on my own.
A successful career I must make,
And your help I cannot take.
You left me all alone,
To face the world on my own.
I struggle against the madness each day,
But not a word of it I must say.
You left me all alone,
To face the world on my own.
Time will pass and years will go by,
You'll never forgive me and I know why,
You left me all alone,
To face the world on my own.
It's pronounced criseez and spazem..
It is strange that I only remember the good times,
When there was no need of these never ending rhymes.
It is strange that I said I could live with the memories
For all my life, that you gave me in a year of crises.
Are you interested in us being together?
Or does it depend only on the weather?
Apologies for the sarcasm,
Life's gone to hell in a spasm.
When there was no need of these never ending rhymes.
It is strange that I said I could live with the memories
For all my life, that you gave me in a year of crises.
Are you interested in us being together?
Or does it depend only on the weather?
Apologies for the sarcasm,
Life's gone to hell in a spasm.
Monday, July 6
Taakat...
Jigar mein jaan nahi,
Aasmaan mein chand nahi,
Dil ko aaraam nahi,
Hum be-imaan nahi.
Duri se lada nahi jataa,
Auron se dil lagya nahi jataa,
Khata ko bhulaya nahi jataa,
Kya apko humpe taras nahi aataa?
Jism ke har ang mein apki yaad hai,
Aap ke har ehsaas ki chaah hai,
Duniya tooti hui aur barbaad hai,
Par koi taakat dene mein saath hai.
Khuda aye khuda thodi jaan de dey,
Unke dil mein humare liye jagah de dey....
Aasmaan mein chand nahi,
Dil ko aaraam nahi,
Hum be-imaan nahi.
Duri se lada nahi jataa,
Auron se dil lagya nahi jataa,
Khata ko bhulaya nahi jataa,
Kya apko humpe taras nahi aataa?
Jism ke har ang mein apki yaad hai,
Aap ke har ehsaas ki chaah hai,
Duniya tooti hui aur barbaad hai,
Par koi taakat dene mein saath hai.
Khuda aye khuda thodi jaan de dey,
Unke dil mein humare liye jagah de dey....
Sunday, July 5
My Letter to You on Our Anniversary
Dearest Avi,
Happy Anniversary my sweet angel.
I almost fell to the dark side today. There was so much hatred in me, perhaps because my mother forgot to give me my medicines today. It's not too good also, I seem to not be able to control myself without the medicines.
Nevertheless, I had my moment of weakness today in which I was seeking revenge by trying to show you your mistakes. But then I remembered that I had too many of my own to be judging someone else. And as I have promised myself that no matter how evil makes me suffer, I will not abandon the good in me, it felt good that I am sweet in office to everyone even though some people think I'm there to kill time; it feels good when I tell boys who think I should move on and try dating other guys that love is not a joke and I've loved once and I cannot belong to anyone else no matter how rich or famous he is or happy he would make my parents; it feels good when I distribute my IIM paper for free (its so much in demand it surprises me) and try to meet up with old friends, and it felt brilliant to be so strong and optimistic in the midst of what some people call your 'games'. Call me stupid, but it feels good to be good and most importantly, SIMPLE. It is just the best feeling in the world not to be falsely proud and no longer be an attention seeker. It is hurtful to see every time that you haven't moved on and it is even more hurtful when you give me mixed signals like your Gtalk status and Orkut profile and then your Facebook profile in which you complain of being betrayed and nagged upon.
But I forgive you, not because I feel bigger or better than you, but because I smile and say I love you my child, nothing you do can remain a mistake for me, like my little krishna, steal all the maakhan you want, you are still the apple of my eye.
I pray that you wear the evil eye beads-they will protect you. All the best my love. Hope you give me a sign that you have read this!
Yours truly now,
Deepanshi
(p.s. i'll change my name to something with letter M if you want-since you got the quiz result)
Happy Anniversary my sweet angel.
I almost fell to the dark side today. There was so much hatred in me, perhaps because my mother forgot to give me my medicines today. It's not too good also, I seem to not be able to control myself without the medicines.
Nevertheless, I had my moment of weakness today in which I was seeking revenge by trying to show you your mistakes. But then I remembered that I had too many of my own to be judging someone else. And as I have promised myself that no matter how evil makes me suffer, I will not abandon the good in me, it felt good that I am sweet in office to everyone even though some people think I'm there to kill time; it feels good when I tell boys who think I should move on and try dating other guys that love is not a joke and I've loved once and I cannot belong to anyone else no matter how rich or famous he is or happy he would make my parents; it feels good when I distribute my IIM paper for free (its so much in demand it surprises me) and try to meet up with old friends, and it felt brilliant to be so strong and optimistic in the midst of what some people call your 'games'. Call me stupid, but it feels good to be good and most importantly, SIMPLE. It is just the best feeling in the world not to be falsely proud and no longer be an attention seeker. It is hurtful to see every time that you haven't moved on and it is even more hurtful when you give me mixed signals like your Gtalk status and Orkut profile and then your Facebook profile in which you complain of being betrayed and nagged upon.
But I forgive you, not because I feel bigger or better than you, but because I smile and say I love you my child, nothing you do can remain a mistake for me, like my little krishna, steal all the maakhan you want, you are still the apple of my eye.
I pray that you wear the evil eye beads-they will protect you. All the best my love. Hope you give me a sign that you have read this!
Yours truly now,
Deepanshi
(p.s. i'll change my name to something with letter M if you want-since you got the quiz result)
Saturday, July 4
loved and lost
Is true love never meant to culminate
In to a life together?
In to nothing better?
Something always has to go wrong,
Is there no happily ever after?
Does life not end with laughter?
The air presses me to get up,
What is it that it says?
You have very few days!
No, it's not the air, it's the wind, the sun and the trees,
Is it everything around me that begs,
For me to stop this complete madness?
In to a life together?
In to nothing better?
Something always has to go wrong,
Is there no happily ever after?
Does life not end with laughter?
The air presses me to get up,
What is it that it says?
You have very few days!
No, it's not the air, it's the wind, the sun and the trees,
Is it everything around me that begs,
For me to stop this complete madness?
Friday, July 3
Khuda-e-Jang
Kaisi jang hai ye jaa-o-bejaa ki,
Kaisi jang hai ye jaa-o-bejaa ki,
Khud ki khudee se khuda-e-jang si.
For those who do not speak Urdu:-
What a battle between right and wrong,
What a battle between right and wrong,
Self against ego like a war against God!(believing self is God/God means belief)
Kaisi jang hai ye jaa-o-bejaa ki,
Khud ki khudee se khuda-e-jang si.
For those who do not speak Urdu:-
What a battle between right and wrong,
What a battle between right and wrong,
Self against ego like a war against God!(believing self is God/God means belief)
Thursday, July 2
Two and a half weeks
Two and a half weeks have passed,
Since your voice was heard last.
Not much reason to rejoice,
But I have no other choice.
Sometimes I pray, that you’ll suddenly say,
I’ve had enough, I want you back today!
But then I wonder, if you hate me so much,
That there is no chance, of anything as such.
I’m finally being true, at least to myself,
No tricks and no books, on a dusty shelf.
I’m seeing the world, with all its cruel people,
I’m learning to be good, in a self-made steeple.
It is tough to resist the smoke and drinks,
But each day I do, I strengthen the links.
The links of innocence that will never be lost,
No matter how evil makes me pay the cost.
Since your voice was heard last.
Not much reason to rejoice,
But I have no other choice.
Sometimes I pray, that you’ll suddenly say,
I’ve had enough, I want you back today!
But then I wonder, if you hate me so much,
That there is no chance, of anything as such.
I’m finally being true, at least to myself,
No tricks and no books, on a dusty shelf.
I’m seeing the world, with all its cruel people,
I’m learning to be good, in a self-made steeple.
It is tough to resist the smoke and drinks,
But each day I do, I strengthen the links.
The links of innocence that will never be lost,
No matter how evil makes me pay the cost.
Wednesday, July 1
Singing Today
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E8MZahUJlME
I'm singing today,
La le la li lay.
The time is short,
But I'm not givin' up.....
No, I ain't givin up.
Your smile makes me smile....
Your hate...makes me smile....
Cause I gotta chance to make it up to,
Today...Every single day.....
I'm singing today,
La le la li lay.
The time is short,
But I'm not givin' up.....
No, I ain't givin up.
I'm singing today,
La le la li lay.
The time is short,
But I'm not givin' up.....
No, I ain't givin up.
Your smile makes me smile....
Your hate...makes me smile....
Cause I gotta chance to make it up to,
Today...Every single day.....
I'm singing today,
La le la li lay.
The time is short,
But I'm not givin' up.....
No, I ain't givin up.
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