Dearest Avi,
Happy Anniversary my sweet angel.
I almost fell to the dark side today. There was so much hatred in me, perhaps because my mother forgot to give me my medicines today. It's not too good also, I seem to not be able to control myself without the medicines.
Nevertheless, I had my moment of weakness today in which I was seeking revenge by trying to show you your mistakes. But then I remembered that I had too many of my own to be judging someone else. And as I have promised myself that no matter how evil makes me suffer, I will not abandon the good in me, it felt good that I am sweet in office to everyone even though some people think I'm there to kill time; it feels good when I tell boys who think I should move on and try dating other guys that love is not a joke and I've loved once and I cannot belong to anyone else no matter how rich or famous he is or happy he would make my parents; it feels good when I distribute my IIM paper for free (its so much in demand it surprises me) and try to meet up with old friends, and it felt brilliant to be so strong and optimistic in the midst of what some people call your 'games'. Call me stupid, but it feels good to be good and most importantly, SIMPLE. It is just the best feeling in the world not to be falsely proud and no longer be an attention seeker. It is hurtful to see every time that you haven't moved on and it is even more hurtful when you give me mixed signals like your Gtalk status and Orkut profile and then your Facebook profile in which you complain of being betrayed and nagged upon.
But I forgive you, not because I feel bigger or better than you, but because I smile and say I love you my child, nothing you do can remain a mistake for me, like my little krishna, steal all the maakhan you want, you are still the apple of my eye.
I pray that you wear the evil eye beads-they will protect you. All the best my love. Hope you give me a sign that you have read this!
Yours truly now,
Deepanshi
(p.s. i'll change my name to something with letter M if you want-since you got the quiz result)
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