Upon Needing Others

Your Ray Ban sunglasses

And your Levi’s shirt, 

Aren't going to fill the void

And deliver peace to you. 

They’re just possessions. 

My mind longs for knowledge, 

And my heart for adventure.

Feeling the gush of wind in my hair

And the gentle hand of a friend. 

I envy you, 

But I pity you too.

For I wish you could feel what I feel, 

And maybe we’d be content. 

Different, so different

In our ways of life, 

Yet content. 

Running

You're racing with the wind 
Tearing through the world like a hurricane,
Terrible
And beautiful. 
So strong and so intense.
And I'm alone here again,
Wishing I was you. 


I'm running after you,
But I can't keep up.
I'm running up to you,
But I can't keep up. 
I'm running all this while for you,
But I can't keep up.
I can't keep up. 


The world's in awe of you
When you see it from my eyes.
And you're skin's just perfect, yes it is,
When you see it from my eyes.

I'm running after you,

But I can't keep up.

I'm running up to you,

But I can't keep up. 

I'm running all this while for you,

But I can't keep up.

I can't keep up. 

You're blinding light

You hurt my eyes, my soul, my body.

You're the eclipse

So beautiful.

The world's in awe of you

Everyone can see.

I'll never see again.

And I'm running after you

But I can't keep up.

I'm running up to you,

But I can't keep up. 

I'm running all this while for you,

But I can't keep up.

I can't keep up. 

No I just can't keep up.

Castles

You can build castles in the sand,
But don't expect them to last like the ones cast in concrete.

A Fool

Dear Avi,

This is a letter you might never read because I don't think you're ever going to ask me to come back to you... But it's okay... And just in case by some bizzare plan of fate we meet again, I'd want you to read this...

I can't come back to you. Too much has happened. Too much pain has passed. Your complete lack of understanding of things that tear my soul apart and wound my heart beyond repair is one reason. But it's not your fault. I still love you beyond compare. It's just that we're two very different people who can't understand or act upon to prevent what hurts the other. It's not worth the pain any more.... A guy said to me once that he would keep me so happy if I married him that I wouldn't ever need to even put a foot on the ground. He might have been lying. He might have been exaggerating. It doesn't really matter.

But don't misunderstand. I don't want some chutiya who'll wag his tail like a dog for me.. Definitely not...I just wanted someone who can love me like no one else... And sweetheart, no one seems to be able to beat you in that quarter.... But we just can't get along... And though I lost my heart on the way.... And I know I can't get it back.. I know we can't get back... I have to move on.... I have to grow up some day... And that day is today....

But don't ever think it's your fault. There's just no magic solution with which you or I will suddenly realize what to do to make the other happy. It's just reality. Cold, bitter reality. The sooner we face, the quicker we can move on...

So I can't come back to you... I can honestly say that I've never loved anyone so much in my life... And by some cruel coincidence of fate, never been hurt by that same person so much...unintentionally as it as... That is why I'll never blame you...It's more about my inability to remain happy with you rather than you being able to make me happy... And so, if I am hurt, I am the one to blame, not you...

It's amazing.. It's so horrific... I loved you with all my heart, soul, body and mind...

Truly,


Tami....

Leaves

I’m falling on to the damp earth

Parted from your branches

One by one.

It was one by one

That I became a part of you

And now you shed me unsympathetically.

It’s in your nature

I know.

But I’m lifeless,

Without your tender bows,

Holding on to me dearly.

And as I fall,

One by one,

You watch me grow paler,

And more brittle.

But you stand strong.

And empty.

And though I made you beautiful,

And gave you the hues of the sun.

You shed me still.

I do not know if I shall be born again

Or another shall take my place.

Only Spring will tell. 

Catch the Drift

Steal a bit of me.
Because I'm handing out precious treasures 
In return for love.


Don't believe, 
Just carry on
Through the pain
The confusion,
And the rain that burns in your eyes. 


I get lonelier
And emptier,
I think. 
But emptier still.
There's no magic eraser
To wipe out my unknown existence
And the scars.
And the screams,
There's no magic eraser.


Drift like a corpse
In the sea that's the world
Pale, 
Lifeless
Heartless. 
Till you sink to the bottom
Or get devoured by the monsters
Flesh-hungry monsters.
There's no magic wind
Coming to take you to the sky
Where those angels look down and smirk.


So carry on. 
Move on. 
Till you get your strength. 
Recover.
Hold on to this.
There's beauty the in abyss too,

Barren as it is.

My last letter to you

This is it. After all that’s said and done, the answer is clear to me. It was a fun little game to play & feelings were a casualty. I don't want to wallow in your memory & watch you flip sides each time. The game’s up, the end’s here & I’m the loser finally. You've got your gym, your booze, drunk friends and a lovely family, so enjoy these while they last. Please don't tell me how I should ‘chill’ & carry on with my life. Because I’ll be the best like I always was & I don't need your fake commentary. 

I'm hurt, very deeply & it’s not your fault. Don't blame yourself, because I don't. This pain is my punishment for loving selflessly and giving myself completely. I won’t go around, playing the victim this time round. Don't bother thinking I'll cut myself, because I'm better than that. I've learnt that I’m on my own. I always was & always will be. So, no thanks to you. Just goodbye, unsentimentally, goodbye. Stay away. I don't want you any more. I don't want you any more. I don't want you any more. 

In inspirational note by John Abraham

Talking about his love life, he said, “My past relationship (with Bipasha Basu) was beautiful and challenging and everything that a relationship with someone for several years is going to be. But people change, interests differ, and things evolve. There is a time for everything in life and while I value the time that I spent with her, it was also time to move on and for each of us to take our own separate road.

 

Regardless of what the world speculates about me, I am determined to move forward and overcome any challenges in front of me. I've always believed that all of us have a choice with how we respond to obstacles in our lives. We can be cowards and shrink from problems and pain or we can confront challenges with the determination to move forward in a positive and better frame of mind. I am excited to see where my life takes me, not only in my professional career, but also in my personal life.