Will Never Be Enough

I am sorry.
I am sorry about making you wait in the car as you cried while I was up in my hotel room.
I am sorry for sitting coldly as you cried and asked me to hug you and get back with you.
I am sorry for raising my hand at you.
I am sorry for blackmailing you to come meet me.
I am sorry for torturing you with my attention-seeking behaviour.
I am sorry I hurt myself just to get your attention.
I am sorry for using your connections to get my work done.
I am sorry for saying whatever when you tried to talk.
I am sorry for letting you cry when my heart was screaming in pain.
I am sorry for not being there when you needed me the most during your placements.
I am sorry for leaving you crying in the hotel.
I am sorry for leaving you crying in the car.
I am sorry for leaving you crying in a restaurant.
I am sorry for the attitude I showed as you told me your problems.
I am sorry I continued faking it in front of your parents.
I am sorry I made you wait in the car for me so many times.
I am sorry for making you feel less.
I am sorry I didn't give you the respect you deserved.
I am sorry I didn't try hard enough to make things right in the last two years.
I am sorry for cutting the phone on you so many times and not coversing properly.
I am sorry for blocking your calls and messages.
I am sorry for wasting 9 years of your life.
I am sorry for mistrusting you with your friends.
I am sorry for not going to Goa with you.
I am sorry for not letting you come meet me when you wanted to make things right.
I am sorry for giving more importance to other people than you.
I am sorry I didn't wear your fitbit.
I am sorry I didn't invite you to my birthday party.
I am sorry I screamed at you so many times.
I am sorry I said bad things about your friends.
I am sorry I doubted your love for me.
I am sorry I betrayed your trust.
I am sorry I never gave you the chance to show that first picture of us in Wave Mall to the world.
I am sorry for always wanting more when all you wanted was me.
I am sorry for not seeing that all you did was for me and only me.
I am sorry putting your family through so much pain.
I am sorry I wasn't there when Frankie died.
I am sorry I told you to lose weight.

I am sorry I argued to prove myself right instead of solving the problem.

I am sorry I compared your Placement Committee to mine.

I am sorry for saying you were dumb or an idiot.
I am sorry for always pointing out your faults instead of looking at mine.
I am sorry for making you feel that I was better than you when I wasn't.
I am sorry I couldn't help you get over me.

I am sorry this will not make things right.

I am sorry I am crying right now.
I am sorry I can't be yours like we always dreamed.
I am sorry for all the things I did not say sorry for.
I am sorry Avi.