You have been patient beyond compare. You have listened to my whims and tolerated them with remarkable grace. I have no words. You have hugged me when I've been down, you've taken care of me like a child, you have been more admirable than any girl can ask for. You have shown love and affection in the face of my madness and loved me despite my flaws. You have been true and faithful despite everything. I am asking one more chance to try and fix things.
I have tried to give you space, but as I try to make my life better, I realize I can't do it without you by my side. You are smart, talented and passionate, and I would want to continue being a part of your life. You are independent, self-sufficient and do not need me. You can be happy without me, I know. But I also know that I can love you like no one else can love you. And now that I know I will never be like I was, I can give you the stability you need from a relationship. But all I am asking in return is to try to move on from the fights. We have both inflicted horrors upon each other, but my love for you surpasses all those nightmares and the beautiful beautiful moments we have enjoyed in the last one year cannot even come close to being overshadowed by the pain.
I just want to make you nice tea, hug you and make all the nightmares go away. I want to see you right now so much it hurts, even if it is just for a bit, to return all the love you have given me.
The trips we made, the stupid dances and jokes, the hugs and tickles, the movies we ticked off our list - just the fact, knowing that there is someone loving you no matter what - tell me that doesn't overpower the fights? I'm not in a position to ask, let alone a position to dictate. I want to move on with my life and make it an amazing life - all I ask is that you be there with me. Have tea with me once, I will make it all okay, I will make your pain go away, but give us this chance - for the sake of the beautiful life that you and I have before us. I am always up for your ideas, your plans and your ambitions, no one girl or friend will support them as fiercely as I can. I am good and pure at heart - you know that. All I'm asking is just to give me a small bit of your time to let me show that to you.
I promise to never return to being the person that hurt you. We can meet only one evening a week if that suits you, but don't burn the bridges, don't leave me hanging here in punishment, don't detach yourself from me, from my love and my commitment to making this work. Please, open your heart to me, it's so warm and deserves all the love and happiness in the world. Allow me to make you feel whole again.
You are a wonderful human being and I do not want to let distance get between us.
The infinite names you have for me, just grant me one line - "Deepanshi, meet me."
Not expecting, not waiting, just hoping...This is all I know-o-o-o.
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