Leaving

So it's my last day here.
It's awkward.
I'm sad it's over and  that I can't just do nonsense anymore.
It hurts.
I don't know why.
I don't regret but I think I'm sad that it's over.
Why am I so sad?
Is it because I'm giving up advertising?
It's hard.
But should I leave advertising?
What good will it do?
Can I live off someone else?
I know I can't?
But why am I sad?
I guess what I'm trying to do is keep writing because I don't know what to feel.
It's hurting that I  won't be able to do all this any more.
I wish I had some clarity.
He's right.
But should I let go of ----?
Opportunities do not knock on your door twice.
But it's so hard.
All the stuff I want I won't  be able to get.
All the things I want to do or give I won't be able to if I hang on.
What matters most in life?
You never know what happens, how things work out.
He said that  too.
It's also a lot about being at the right place at the right time isn't it?
So maybe God wanted it that way?
That sounds so crap and lame.
Sounds like a miserable excuse.
But honestly,
Believe me,
Honestly, it's the truth.